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One of my distant cousins who's in the marines in iraq recently talked to his mother.  Two of his bffs just got killed in a roadside bombing.  Kind of puts things like midterms in perspective.  We are at war and all, its surprising easy to forget.

i love how our new school district periodical is called pride. does anyone else find this funny?

Current Mood:

contemplative

OK, well, to go a few months ahead, I'm turning 18 soon which means, of course, legal tattoos and piercings, yay!  So i need an opinion.  I dont know when i'm getting my first tat, but it will be sometime before i start college, and i have a few ideas for what i want to get, so i want to know what you guys think about which should be my first.  

My first idea is kind of a variation of the 

Current Mood:	contemplative
Current Music:	Blind Guardian// Another Stranger Me

I got into college- Clark University.  It was kind of a safety, kind of a good match, but at least I know I'm going somewhere.  I didnt think i would feel this much better for a school that wasnt even really a top choice, but i am.  Therefore I'm in a good mood, despite my horrible cramps.  Damn you, uterus and estrogen.

I hate January.  No one is ever in a consistently good mood this month.  Probably because of the weather, SAD and all that.  yay pysch.

OMG. of all the things i'll miss about alj, i think euro will be the most.  I <3 that class so much, you have no idea.  I really have to sashythat spence is my favorite person i ever met thus far in my life.  without a doubt.  I like pysch too, but theres more idiots in that class, and they ruin it sometimes by making stupid comments and stuff.  And the dumbasses in the back never shut up.  sebastian is really funny though, i'm not gonna lie. 

bye bye

*Riss~*

Current Mood:

satisfied

I think i have the flu.  I cant stop shaking and coughing and my throat feels terrible.  Idc, i am not missing school until march,  Unless i'm like bedridden or something.  

ugh, i have dance tonight. Don't really feel like going, especially being sick, but i wont learn the steps otherwise.  I love dance, as far as the dancing part, i just dont like the people there and all their bullshit.  They are sooo disrespectful of our teacher, who is sometimes too nice and they take advantage of her.  Except now she's getting bitchier to everyone because of them, and i dont want that to happen to her.  Still, i'm kind of sad its my last yeear, i'm going to cry at the recital when she calls the seniors to the stage and makes her speech.  I almost cry every year, and now i'll be one of them, so i'm going to probably like sob onstage.  :(

All my college stuff is done, went to my last interview last night.  It was ok.  i hate trying to sell myself, its the worst thing ever for me.  But its done. Now i just have to wait. 

If Patti's absent again, i'm going to kill her. 

Current Mood:

sick

i'm sick AGAIN... no idea how that happened.  but i'm laying on the couch all day so i can get rest, theres no way i'm missing school this month.  grrr.

i really wish something interesting would happen to me.  I dont know if nothing exciting happens to me anymore or if i'm just jaded to everything. :-\  At least i know for a fact that college will be a new experience, so i won't be jaded to that.  It's weird though, i feel almost like i would prefer my sophomore year depression/ anger to this.  At least then i felt something.  Youre not supposed to feel like this at 17.  

I love gothic metal.   i still can't get into emo or indie, the only emo i really like is MCR, and theyre more like alternative.  Seriously, without music, i would be like a robot, with no emotion.  I really sometimes think Nightwish saved my life, becuase i got into them during a really bad time in my life and i was able to kind of dissociate into another world when i was listening to them, and i think that really prevented me from doing anything to hurt myself and stuff.

Current Mood:	indifferent
Current Music:	Tristania// My Lost Lenore

Wow, i really hope that 2007 is better, 2006 kind of sucked ass.  But anyway, its over so thats cool.   

Can't believe tomorrow's the last day off.  I really dont want to go back to ALJ, it gets more unbearable with each break.  But, dorky as it sounds, i miss Euro a lot.  That class makes my day interesting, seriously.  

Highlights of 2006
- South Beach
-Cape Cod <3333
- the realization that being a senior means LAST YEAR IN THIS dumbass school/town
-just hanging with steph and patti... hanging out is like the only thing i enjoy doing recently
-deciding to go pagan... i know that sounds lame, but it's one of the best decisions i've made

I'm not going make myself depressed with a lowlights list.  

Love ya all!!!
*Riss~*

Current Location:	MCR// The Sharpest Lives
Current Mood:	hopeful